Your Life is Sacred
- By Ishika Aswani
- Jul 2, 2017
- 3 min read
Exactly 15 years ago on July 1st, I found out that I was pregnant and this was easily the most sacred albeit scary experience I was being set up for in this lifetime.
When I first got the news that I might very well be pregnant, I cried bitterly.
I felt overwhelmed.
My husband and I had only been married 7 months and prior to that we were engaged for 11 months, while completing our MBA and preparing for our lavish Indian wedding.
After our wedding, moving in with him and his family was a massive change for me.
I am an only child and was from a nuclear family and being the apple of my parents’ eye was all I knew as my entire existence.
"I was special in my home."
However now as the newest member of a large joint family I was eagerly trying to find my place in the flow of the family dynamics, as a wife and in the daily scheme of things.
"My intention for myself ever since I graduated Business school, had been to upgrade my career from the job I had held for 6 years through University to a full-paying position at an equally well recognized firm as a post graduate and a woman of substance."
Then my husband and I were going to settle down into our own little love nest and experience the joys and passion of being a young wed couple, exploring life together as grown-ups.
Realizing that I was pregnant felt like I had jumped over all the hurdles in the obstacle race and reached the finish line, all too soon.
I felt confused.
I wasn’t sure what I was crying about?
Was it that my ideal body weight that I had been working so hard to finally achieve over the last few years was now going to change dramatically?
That my new and improved wardrobe with sexy outfits from my trousseau were going to stop fitting within the next 2 months tops.
That it was going to take me much longer than I had hoped, to upgrade my career. A change that I had been dreaming of making ever since I graduated, before even beginning my Masters’ degree.
"In that moment more thoughts had started streaming into my consciousness, as doubts and dilemmas of whether this news was indeed good news."
Thoughts of whether our grown-ups would approve.
I was unsure of whether my in-laws would be supportive and appreciative, in a way that they could see me and my husband as responsible adults who were about to start a little family of our own or my parents who held out for me becoming the most successful, independent, kick-ass career woman our family ever had.
And then the more personal self-doubts that as an only child and somewhat isolated in my own world, I’d never even considered baby-sitting any of my younger cousins or friend’s younger siblings.
Were we in-over-our-heads with this turn of events?
Did the Universe actually think we were capable of being parents to another human being??
What!?!
How did this even happen, of course I know how it happens biologically speaking.
But on a higher, grander scale of life events, how was this being made possible especially as it didn’t fit into the carefully planned, step-by-step sequence of events I had chalked out for our lives.
It threw me off-guard and I was surprised. Was that why I was crying?
After having experienced the thrills of motherhood these last 14+ years, sometimes exasperating, sometimes fulfilling as all thrills usually are…I finally realize why I was crying so bitterly that evening.
They were neither tears of joy nor grief, confusion nor fear.
They were tears of humility and gratitude and I didn’t even know it at the time.
"My heart had burst open and I was being flooded with Self-Worthiness, Self-Trust and Self-Love inspired by the Universe, as I had become the chosen one."
How else would I have been entrusted with this Divine privilege and responsibility of being a parent – the keepers of humankind.
As parents we think we are here to guide our children to their destiny. And ever so often we oblige them into living their fate.
Instead lets inspire them to connect deeply with their Highest Potential, that is their destiny.
As I refer to it here, fate is the limited potential that we live by following the repetitive and karmic patterns of our lineage.
"To step free of your fate and reach for your Highest potential is your true destiny."
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